Contemplating lyrics

I am about to give out the url to this blog, so I'd better get writing. I have received some great encouragement to get going, so here it goes.

I think that God speaks to me the most tangibly and most frequently through music. Sometimes the music has words, sometimes not. There is one song that has affected me every time I hear it, as though the Holy Spirit were right next to me, telling me, "It'll be ok."

"Fade to Grey" by Jars of Clay

It's not hard to know what you're thinking
When you look down on me now
Your trance of love is seeking
To turn this world around
But in my state of blind confusion
No, God can pull me out
I see your love is willing
To turn me inside out

And then I see you there
The lonely tears I cry
I wish they'd release me

It's in despair that I find faith
Summon the night to bow down to day
When ignorance is bliss
Save me from myself

Chorus:

And then I see You there
With Your arms open wide and You try to embrace me
These lonely tears I cry
They keep me in chains and I wish they'd release me
Cold is the night but
Colder still is the heart made of stone, turned from clay
And if you follow me
You'll see all the black, all the white fade to grey

The references to blind confusion, tears keeping me in chains, seeing God with His arms open wide through tear-filled eyes, and the metaphor of the heart. The night is cold, but colder still is the heart if it's made of stone, turned from the clay that God formed it with. His love is willing to turn me inside out. I am not sure who the speaker of the last two lines is. It is either God, or the speaker whose tears keep him in chains.

Either way, I love this song because it always de-numbs my heart. It makes me wake up out of my everyday hard heart, breaking away the hard shell that forms around it because of the world I live in. It helps to bring the despair that is on the inside outward, because "It's in despair that I find faith."

I'm so glad that I blogged today instead of playing more computer games.